what do you do
when they are all you can think about

what do you do
when your best friends ask who you like

what do you do
when you start to fall for your friend

…but he isnt falling for you

WOW!!! I have known you for a very long time and I have loved every minute of it! You are a really good princess and person. You are so sweet and kind to everyone, and you are always true to yourself. You are a hard worker and always stand up for what you believe in no matter what anyone else says. You are an amazing athlete and have grown in all aspects of your life. You have been such an amazing friend to me! You always got my back, and know that I got yours. I love how much we trust eachother. I am not afraid to come to you with any of my problems, because I know you will give me the honest answer and not just what I want to hear. You are so funny, you always put a smile on my face. Thanks for always listening to me. You are truely one of the best friends and team-mates a girl could ask for. It is so nice to always know I will have one princess by my side through thick and thin. I will cherish all of the good times we have had and look forward to see what else lies in store for us! Well, Prince Charming is calling me, so I need to bid you farewell. Tell Aladdin hello! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

With Love,
Princess Aurora

It kinda sucks

You like a guy

And he likes you

You get all excited

You go out

It's goin good

Or at least that is what you think

You break up

You play it off like it is no big deal

But inside, you are hurting

The feelings that you had for him are still there

Even though he is not

He likes another girl

They go out

You feel as though your heart is being ripped out

But you can't tell anyone how you feel

They break up

You get excited

Maybe you could have another chance with him

But then, he likes someone else

And this one is more serious

They go out for a long time

All you can do is watch

And silently hope that they will break it off soon

When they do, you take a deep breath

Maybe now…

But he doesn't  know

He doesn't know that he is all you think about

When the phone rings, you pray that it is him

When you go to bed you wonder if he ever is thinking about you

He will never know unless you tell him

And that idea scares you

What if he doesn't like you anymore…

But what if he does?

And some of the makeup things that they have in there, no one in their right mind would ever do that unless they wanted to be made fun of for the rest of your life! Also, they don’t do a very good job of telling you how to do something. I tried to do this one eye idea where you put a lot of eyeliner on the upper lid. It looked really good on the girl in the magazine. But on my friend, it looked like she had a black eye or something.

The drama stories that they have in there, they are so extrememe, that you don’t think that they could ever happen again. One was about two lesbian girls who killed their grandparents, one was about someone being killed for being pregnant and the another was of a poor homeless man being killed by four teenagers. Hopefully none of these will happen again, but you can’t relate to them at ALL!

I think that the only thing that anyone can really relate to is the funny stories section. There is some hilarious stuff in there, but it is very realistic. I can really relate to all of these things that other people were brave enough to send in. I start cracking up anytime that I read this part. So, this is now the only section that I even bother to look at. It is the only one that you can really understand.  If I were you, I wouldn’t buy Seventeen magazine.  It is a waste of time and money.

We wouldn’t need ears

We wouldn’t need laughboxes and voiceboxes

We wouldn’t hear the yelling and screaming

No one’s feelings would get hurt because they were called a name

We wouldn’t be able to laugh

We wouldn’t be able to talk

All of the trees in the world would be cut down

So much paper would be used

All of the simple things that we take for granted would be gone

All of our entertainment would be gone

No tv

No iPods

No talking on the phone

Everything would be on paper

It would take forever to comunicate

I think that even though some of the noises that we hear in the world are bad

The world would pretty much suck without sound

they are so different from what life is really like

no one ever has seen a doll that runs around and murders people

or a mouse that turns into a horse after a godmother says bippety boppety boo

yet some movies and television

seem so real and so true

that we get lost in their worlds and start believing that a doll is going to pop out

or that our pet mouse jasper will turn into the horse that drives us to the ball

movies and television

the fairytales in movies don’t happen

the horror that movies depict hopefully will never

the people in our favorite tv shows aren’t real

yet there are some people who live life like a horror movie

some people play the evil doll, who murders innocent people for a stupid reason

some people play the victim, the innocent person who was killed for a stupid reason

some people play the victim’s family, the people whose lives are dramaticly changed

then there are the people who live life like a fairytale

some people play the pretty girl, who is nice and sweet but undiscovered by love

some people play the evil stepsister, who is blocking the beautiful girl from life

some people play the helpers, the ones who love the beautiful girl and help her

some people play prince, the lucky guy who meets the girl and falls in love

i believe that in life

you need to make your own fairytales

you need to stop the horror story from unraveling

you need to make your own miracle

tv and movies

they give us ideas of what perfect is

but their perfect shouldn’t be your perfect

you need to make things happen

because in reality

a fairytale can happen once upon a time

In this song, Chris Brown is talking about saying goodbye to a girlfriend.  But I think that this phrase is true in more than just love, but in life.  When a loved one dies,  you don’t want to have to say goodbye.  There’s never a right time to and no one should ever have to, but everyone does.  I have been lucky enough not to have anyone in my family that I was really close to pass away.  My great-grandparents did, and I loved them, but not as I love my mom, dad, sister, cousins, uncles, aunts, grandparents and friends.  I grew up with them and was born into a very closeknit family, and I wouldn’t have it any other way.  I know a lot of people out there feel the same way and have to bite their lips when their mind starts to travel down the thought of a loved one dying.  I have been lucky.  But many others I know haven’t. 

I have a friend.  She is one of the coolest and funniest people you’ll ever meet.  You would never guess that she had to go through the tradgedy of losing a parent at a young age.  She passes it off like she’s okay, but I sometimes wonder if her hurt is deeper than the eyes can even begin to see and the soul, begin to comprehend.  One of my dad’s best friends growing up had a son.  He was a tall, skinny basketball player who was in college.  He comitted suicide.  No one knew why.  He seemed fine.  The hurt that his parents feel, I know that it will never go away.  Every little thing will remind them of him, and they will have to live the rest of their lives thinking what they did wrong to make their baby kill himself.

Death is a part of life.  Sometimes, you know that it is coming.  But sometimes, it sneaks up on you.  But whether it is expected or unexpected, you need to know that the last thing you said to them was nice, that you went the extra mile to make sure you saw them.  Because if it is unexpected, you will never forgive yourself for calling them something mean, or not calling them to see how they were doing.  Tell the people that you love how you feel.  Live life to the fullest.  Make sure that when you have to say goodbye, there are no regrets.  “Death is not the greatest loss in life.  The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live.”

                                                                 Norman Cousins 

Everyone can tell that she loves him

Except for him

She makes it so clear

Everyone understands that she wants him

Except for him

She makes it so easy

Everyone sees that he has the opportunity to go for it

Except for him

She lays it all on the line

Everyone wants it to happen

Except for him

She gets over him

Everyone understands that she doesn’t like him like that anymore

Except for him

     There is another girl who had a similar case, though her ending is a parents worst dream.  Her name was Veronica and she lived in Dayton, Ohio with her parents and older brother Scott.  She was a tomboy, she always had her hair up, sporty clothes on and dirt on her face.  ”She never said like,” recalled her brother, “she was always playin football with the guys and didn’t have time to say like.”  Then one day, she got the bug.  ”I remember every detail.  We were sitting at the kitchen tabel eating KFC, when all of a sudden she said ‘This is like really good!’  We were proud of her at first because we thought that she was becoming more of a girl,”  said Paul.  “Then she just started saying like in a row, ‘like like like like like like like like like like like like like like like like…’ and we were all flabergasted.  We immediatly called 911, but when they came, they told us it was too late.  The bug had consumed Veronica’s identity.  She slowly began to say like in every sentence, flip her hair around, wear nice clothes, and talk in the fake, valleygirl voice.

     This syndrome is sweeping the nation. The best thing you can do to protect yourself is by not saying like as a pause at all. Also it is best to seperate yourself from anyone who does, for it can become highly contagious. If you do get like syndrome, then you must be ready for intense theropy. It may take weeks of rehab to break the habit and force the bug out. BEWARE OF THE LIKE SYNDROME AND KNOW THE SYMPTOMS! For more information go to www.likelikelikelike.com

Let’s get some shoes
Let’s get some shoes
Let’s get some shoes
Let’s get some shoes

These shoes RULE
These shoes SUCK
These shoes RULE
These shoes SUCK

Shoes
Shoes
Shoes
OH MY GOSH SHOES

These shoes RULE
These shoes SUCK
These shoes SUCK
These shoes SUCK

I think you have too many shoes
SHUT UP
I think you have too many shoes
SHUT UP
I think you have too many shoes
SHUT UP
I think you have too many shoes
SHUT UP

Stupid boy
Stupid boy
Let’s get some shoes
LET’S PARTY!!!

Well for those of you who haven’t seen the shoes video by Kelly, you probably think that I am totally insane and crazy about shoes. For those of you that have, you know the rythym to the words and how hilarious they are when said by a man dressed up as a woman. This is probably the most random thing that I have ever seen, besides the charlie the unicorn video but that’s a story all in its own. Anyway, it is funny in an indescribably crazy sort of way. I think it is the tone of voice, the uglyness and the fact that he is an extremist shopper addicted to shoes. I will warn you that the ending is weird and he starts to say some pretty bad and unnecessary things so if I were you I would stop it right after he starts to say “These shoes are $300″ because then he goes a little crazy with a certain word that is not a good word to be screaming at the top of our lungs. It is a funny random video and the beginning is pretty fricken funny so YEAH!!!

2.) I want to learn how to make a really cool video on iMovie by reading an info packet and cool ideas. I will need a computer, video camera and actors/actresses

2) I don’t know what your problem is but I bet it’s hard to pronounce

3) I like you, you remind me of when I was young and stupid

4) I’ll try to be nicer if you try being smarter

5) I’m out of my mind, but feel free to leave a message

6) I’m really easy to get along with once people learn to worship me

7) I’m already visualizing the duct tape over your mouth

I’m not being rude, your just insignificant

9) You got your brain very early.  Apparently the warrenty has run out.

10) I may be fat, but you’ll always be ugly, and I can diet

11) Did I invite you to my barbque, cuz why you all up in my grill?

12) The 80’s called, they want their clothes back

13) I’m trying to imagine you with a personality

14) Too many freaks, not enough circuses

15) Whatever kind of look you were going for, you missed

16) Don’t you need a license to be that ugly?

17) I’ll give you a nice, shiny quarter if you’ll go away

18) Your not yourself today, I noticed the improvement immediately

19) Your a habit I’d like to kick, with both feet

20) Hi! I’m a human being, what are you?

HOW CRUEL CAN YOU GET?!  I looked up comebacks on google and was pretty amazed at some of the mean stuff that people have thought of to say.  Why would you say something like this to someone?  The ONLY time that it is okay is if you are telling it to one of your good friends and they know that you are kidding.  Otherwise, YOU ARE A MEANY HEAD! Now, if you had said one of these to someone, and you weren’t being a goofy goober and just messin, than you need to go and apologize!……… please?

2) Did it hurt when you feel from heaven cuz you must be an angel!

3) If at any point during the night you feel the need to make-out with anyone, I’m there for you!

4) Are you tired cuz you been running through my mind all day!

5) Do you have a map, cuz I’m getting lost in your eyes!

6) I think I dropped something, o yea, my jaw!

7) If I followed you home, would you keep me?

If I could rearrange the alphabet, I would put U and I together!

9) Your daddy must have been a baker, cuz you got a nice set of buns!

10) Your name must be Mickey cuz you fine!

11) Do you like raisins? How about a date?

12) Do you know karate cuz your body is kickin!

13) If you were a bugger I’d pick you first!

14) Do you have a library card cuz I’d like to check you out!

15) Do you believe in love at first sight or should I walk by again?

16) Baby, you must be a broom cuz you just swept me off my feet!

17) If I got a nickle for every time I saw someone as cute as you, I’d have 5 cents!

18) Are you a parking ticket cuz you’ve got FINE written all over you!

19) Is your name Gillette cuz your the best a guy can get!

20) Can I have your picture so I can show Santa what I want for Christmas?

As hilarious as these pickup lines are, they rarely work.  Shocking, I know.  Why are there so many if they rarely work? I’m not sure, but I think that they are used as jokes more than pickup lines.  I don’t think I have ever heard anyone go up to a complete stranger and tell them one of these.  The only time I have ever heard or used these are between friends.  They are funny.  People like things that are funny so people like these lines.  They give you a good laugh.  I am going to leave you all with a challenge.  I want you all to go up to a complete stranger and tell them your favorite line from the above list.  Comment back to me what line you used and if it worked or of the persons reaction.  I am curious to see how many of you are willing to possibly make a complete fool of yourself, but more importantly, if they are more successful than I think they are.

The only chance of winning is if I am able to stop the ball from rolling down the whitemesh
The opposition walks on the grass, crunching it beneath her feet

She is probably just as nervous as I am, because she knows if she misses, I win

She spins the ball a few times and rubs it for good luck before placing it on the little white line that represents the twelve yards between winning and losing

She slowly backs away from the ball, ready to strike as I take a deep breath and stradle my nerves and the reff gets ready to blow the whistle

It seems like and eternity

The nerves are climbing up my body slowly crippling my confidence
What if I don’t make an easy save and we lose

I take a deep breath and started to stop the nerves from reaching my heart, for I know that as soon as they did, all hope for my team would be lost

I am on the line, the reff blows the wistles

She quickly diverts her eyes to the left corner, and I read her like a map

As she strikes the ball with the muddy white laces of her cleats, the ball starts moving towards the left corner

I move with the ball

I take a quick step and then dive with all of my heart at the sphere of happiness and dread

My right arm extends further than my left

With my fingertips, I shove the ball away from the goal it was so desperately trying to get to

I hit the ground hard, but I don’t feel a thing

I get up and run to my team

It was an instinct

As the 17 bodies of my team collided, we became one

An unstoppable mass of love for eachother, winning and most of all: the game 

To go to war even when its not right

To shoot and kill another man

To kill him is to ruin God’s plan

    ~    *    ~    *    ~ 

Why do we kill the innocent ones

The ones who turn and have no guns

Sometimes children are on this losing side

We shoot at them while they try to run and hide 

    ~    *    ~    *    ~

Why do we even go to war

And with a sudden bang close the door

The door of calmeness the door of peace

Why do we keep shooting instead of making it cease

” I do love you Amber, so I am going to give you a little bit of a chance. If you tell me all about your new lover, I will give you another option.”

” Fine, I will tell you about Ray Brown. He is tall, with brown hair and brown eyes. He has the best smile I have ever seen. He has a dimple on his left cheek. He has ripped abs. He is smart and funny and kind and sweet and determined and athletic and faithful. We have been dating for almost a year now, and I think I might love him.”

As Amber spoke, Kyle had grabbed a piece of paper and a pen and wrote down what she had said. He slowly folded the paper and put it in the pocket of his black sweats before placing the knife on the kitchen table and sitting down on the coach.

“Come here Amber. I don’t have any knifes. You can check me if you want.”

“I believe you, I won’t need to check.”

“CHECK!!!”

Amber frantickly scrambled over to Kyle and started to pat him down, careful of where she put her hands as to not give him any ideas. Even without a knife, it would be easy for Kyle to kill her, and she knew that. He was strong in high school and even now she could see his biceps bulging even with a sweatshirt on. She would be easily overpowered.

“Sit down,” Klye said as he patted on the smooth black leather next him.

Amber hesitated. She took a seat, careful not to touch him as she sat down. All that caution was soon wasted as Kyle forced his arm around her and pulled her close. She tried to jerk away, but he was to strong. As soon as Amber stopped struggling, Kyle relaxed his arm.

“You have two options. It doesn’t matter which one you choose, they will both end in the same result. You will be dead. I am doing this through pure love…”

“What…” Amber gasped. Then her voice became stronger and more defiant. “If you truely loved me, you wouldn’t kill me! If you truely loved me, you…, you would let me be with Ray because you would want what was best for ME! No, you don’t truely love me, I was just the only girl who ever gave you a chance and now that no girl will even look at you, you think that I am the one, but I’m not! Please Kyle, this is not about you loving me or even knowing me, this is about you being a sick and twisted guy who needs to kill the only thing that gets close to his heart!”

Kyle just sat and listened. He had no reaction whatsoever. Amber had hoped that her little speech would make him leave her alone, but it didn’t make him waver one bit.

“Are you ready to hear your options?” Kyle said in a chilling tone. Amber did nothing but give a curt nod. “Good. Option 1, you let me kill you right here. I’ll get it over with a quick stab to the heart so you can go to heaven. Option 2, you can run. You can tell the police, move, get your name changed, whatever you please. But I will find you and when I do, I will kill you slowly and painfully, until you are begging me to end it. So Amber, what will it be?”

Amber didn’t even answer. She grabbed her dog and car keys and sprinted to her car without turning back once. She was going to go to the police and give Kyle a taste of his own medicine.

*!*!*!*!*!*!*!*!*!*!*!TO BE CONTINUED!*!*!*!*!*!*!*!*!*!*!*

“Hello Amber,” the man said in a cool voice, “how are you this evening?”
    
“I’m good except for the fact that I have a complete stranger sitting in my living room.”
    
“Oh Amber! Don’t you remember me?”
    
She thought. The tone had sounded oddly familiar, it was the kind that tickels your spine and gives you goose bumps. She had heard it before. It was in third grade. No, no one talks like that when they are seven. It had to be high school, when most of the boys had the voice of a man. Was it Billy Wexler from English class? No, his voice was deeper. Was it Rob Finkley? No, his voice was a little higher, kinder. That’s when it hit her.  Kyle Montgomery.  Her old boy friend.  She had loved him with all her heart and thought that he was the one she was going to spend the rest of her life with until she saw him making out with her best friend Cindy.  When she confronted him, he denyed it, but she knew it was him.  She didn’t talk to him for the rest of high school. 

     “Yes dear, it’s me.”

     “What are you doing here?  What do you want?”

     “Do you love me?”

      “What?” Amber gasped.  She felt like a big ball had hit her smack in the stomach.  Every breath she drew was taxing.  She didn’t know what to say.

     “You heard me!” Kyle stood and started to stalk over to her, but stopped.  “I said do you love me?”  He pulled of his black hood and starred at her with icey eyes and a taught face.

     “Kyle, it’s been such a long time.  I’ve moved on.  I don’t think about you anymore and whenever I do, it is full of pain and hatred.  You BROKE my heart!  I did love you Kyle, but not anymore.”

     Amber stopped talking.  She could see his expression change from deep remorse to bubbling anger.  He just stood there and stared at her.  Amber held her breath and tried to look as though she was not scared and wouldn’t back down when inside, the fear was nawing at her heart. 

     A small smirk crossed Kyle’s face.  It was once the look that had made Amber weak at ther knees, but now, it made her shake with fear.

     ”You never were the kind to be scared Amber.  You always stood firm for what you believed and I admire that.  Even in my presence, when you can sense that I am not happy, you have the guts to slap me in the face and tell me that you have not thought about me as I have about you.  You are strong.  I have and always will love you.”

     “Please Kyle, don’t ask me to try to love you back or give you another shot.  I will admit, I kept loving you for the rest of junior year, but it’s been years since then!  I have a new love.  His name is Ray.  He is very kind and funny, just like you were, except he is faithful.  You had your chance and you blew it.”

     Kyle’s face looked exactly the same, but his eyes had changed.  They were all glassy, as if he wanted to cry.  Then the water slowly pooled away from the surface to show hate.  He reached his right arm into the left side of his cloak.

     “If I can’t have you…”

     His voice was deep and cool, icey and crippling.  He pulled out a sharp knife and smiled a big, wide, creapy smile.

     “… then no one can!”

* ! * ! * ! * ! * ! * ! * ! * ! * ! * ! * ! TO BE CONTINUED ! * ! * ! * ! * ! * ! * ! * ! * ! * ! * ! *

Let yourself dance like no one is watching

Let yourself love like no one cares

Let yourself laugh until your stomach hurts

Let yourself smile until your cheeks spaz

Let yourself live like there is no tomorrow

If ye aint gots the goods for dem shoes, den ye aint gots nuttin ats all!!!

I don care how ya get dem goods, long as ya get dem shoes fur realz! ya’ll heard!

Yeah, and bouts dem shoes girl, you gots to get dem!

When ya wear dem, dang girl, ya looks like a rich girl from da rich houses yo!

GET DEM DANG SHOES RIGHT NOW YO!!!

I couldn’t get to sleep, Santa was coming
Snow flakes were wondering down from the sky
Floating about aimlessly
I was staring, amazed at the little white wonders,
When I heard my Mommy start to yell

I crept into the hallway
And sat right outside their room
Mommy was yelling at Daddy
I could tell she was cryin

She said ‘Don’t you love me?’
He said ‘Of course I do!’
‘How long, how long have you been…’
‘For about a year’ he had whispered in pain

She had started sobbing really loud
She had run out of the room
She didn’t even look at me when I said ‘Mommy?’
I heard the garage door open
And my Mommy drove away

My Daddy slammed the door
I felt so alone
I crawled into my older sisters bed and shook her awake
‘Mommy’s gone!’ I had cried
She got up and held me wearily
‘It’s okay, hush, dont worry, it’ll all be okay’

It’s all my fault I thought
If I didn’t need to go to soccer and basketball all the time,
Maybe Mommy would still be here…

*************************************************

Now I go back and forth between two homes
One with my Mommy
And one with my Daddy and New Mommy
I wish they were still together
It’s all my fault…

The air was crisp

The bitter cold was resonating through it

Touching my skin, with the slightest brush

Kissing my whole body with cool, cracked  lips

White mist covered the ground

Small snowflakes wondered through the gap of air between

cool cloud and froven ground

I stood on the frost covered grass,

Marveling at the little diamonds left on each blade

As I breathed, I could see my secrets in the smoke emerging from my nose

All of this a tiny reminder that sometimes the biggest and most diverse wonders of the world

Are as small and unique as one tiny snowflake

There were two planes, both going to Los Angeles
We all thought they couldn’t get hijacked
We were wrong

The two planes were in New York City, flying low in the sky
We all thought they wouldn’t collide with the World Trade Centers
We were wrong

Hundreds of firefighters in the lobby, trying to make an escape plan
Thousands of people thinking they are going to be ok, unaware of the dangers
We all thought that the towers wouldn’t collapse
We were wrong

Americans in the Middle East, invading Iraq
We all thought we were going to find nuculear bombs
We were wrong

Millions of Americans in the Middle East, fighting a war
We all thought this would be quick
We were wrong

Now thousands are dead
We all thought this was a good idea, and now some of us think
We were wrong